A two way street

I was sitting on a bench around the corner while snowing, I wonder profoundly about my life. I see people crossing the street and cars passing by. I wonder, how on Earth I came here? I answered my own question. I was here because I have purpose. I was here because I am capable of living and choose what to do.

While, sitting and wondering I looked at the sky and imagine all of my dreams. I smiled weirdly and thought about how to get it. Thinking about time and effort makes me feel crazy and lazy but I know I must pursue because I know it is a rewarding feeling to achieve my goals one by one.

I often ask myself silly questions and found the answer right in front of me or somewhere deep within me. It is a some kind of a two way street I can go here and there to get to the place that I want to go. Maybe there are some long haul drives of flights to go through but somewhere there, I know I can get there.

I felt chilly as the snow drops heavily with the wind. I wished that if only I could freeze time and get there without losing so much but life must go on and we can never go back just moving forward and aiming right with a clearer view.

-Anna

My 2013

This is a bit recap of my year. I must admit that this is a ‘ME STUFF” and not something about food, travel, technology, beauty or anything above or under the hot sunshine. :)

This is an awesome year to remember. “22” is the best age according to Taylor Swift and I think she is right about it while, according to Paramore from their Hello Cold World song,

22 is like the worst idea that I have ever had
It’s too much pain, it’s too much freedom
What should I do with this?
it’s not the way you plan it
It’s how you make it happen

Well, both idea were right, I have experienced both and I just had lots of fun, pressure and knowledge to keep. It makes me feel more human and I realized that every second of the day is important because I am getting old and I might lose my aces and regret it for not doing anything. I must spend it wisely and even if it is difficult to do, I must survive! Even if it is tiring, at the end of the day it will be all full worth to do.

One thing is for sure about me now and for the succeeding years:  “I WILL NEVER LOSE ANY PARTICULAR CHANCE IN MY LIFE. I WILL AVOID TO SAY NO TO GOOD TIMES AND QUALITY TIMES. I WILL DO EVERYTHING TO MAKE A LIVING AND FOR MY FUTURE

ON THE OTHER HAND, here are some photos of my adventures this year:

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Mother’s day with Nanay and Mommy (My Grannies)

Nicole's 4th Birthday @ 8waves Waterpark and Resort

April 17: Nicole’s 4th Birthday @ 8waves Waterpark and Resort

Summer 2013 @ Aztea Zambales. Beach day!

Summer 2013 @ Aztea Zambales. Beach day!

May 25, 26, 27: 3 days 2 nights with Ejay's family @ Piña Colina Tagaytay.

May 25, 26, 27: 3 days 2 nights with Ejay’s family @ Piña Colina Tagaytay.

May 26: Mommy's Birthday. (I missed it because I was in Tagaytay with Ejay).

May 26: Mommy’s Birthday. (I missed it because I was in Tagaytay with Ejay).

Night Swimming with Elementary classmates. Such fun night! Friends Forever!

Night Swimming with Elementary classmates. Such fun night! Friends Forever!

July 02: Vianca's 16th Birthday.

July 02: Vianca’s 16th Birthday.

July 04: Lloyd's 15th Birthday.

July 04: Lloyd’s 15th Birthday.

JULY 09: COMPLETE! COUSINS!

JULY 09: COMPLETE! COUSINS!

With Daryll. My Cousin!

With Daryll. My Cousin!

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July Moments with Santiago Family

August 03: Ate Camille's Bridesmaid on her Wedding! <3

August 03: Ate Camille’s Bridesmaid on her Wedding! <3

September 19: Eliana's 2nd Birthday at Jollibee Pulilan (September 23)

September 19: Eliana’s 2nd Birthday at Jollibee Pulilan (September 22)

MY 23 BIRTHDAY WITH EJAY!!

MY 23rd BIRTHDAY WITH EJAY!!

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MERRY CHRISTMAS! 5th Christmas with Ejay. :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
5th Christmas with Ejay. :)

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I am really thankful for this year. Grateful to do so many things. had lots of fun with my family and friends. Spend quality time with those people I love most. 2013 is a year of experience for me. Looking forward to more adventures in 2014. It is a new beginning too! I am gonna be tougher than I am now.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

I hope you all had a good year in 2013 too and like I wish, may 2014 be nice to all of us. We cannot avoid bumps on the road but you must learn how to drive: speed up, slow down and stop.

Love,

anna

Post Christmas Greetings

Lately, I was consumed by family duties and other stuff. I was always away from my computer and I only have my phone which I have the WordPress app in it where I can able to reply all the comments.

I am having a hard time blogging using my phone because there was this incident when I almost finish my post for the day, I accidentally deleted it. It hurts because it was hard to type a long post using only a smartphone. Well, at least I re-typed all of it again. haha! Good Job for me (sarcasm).

GREETINGS!

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I wanna greet all of you a Merry Christmas! I hope you enjoyed your Christmas. Whether it was just a simple lunch, dinner or a grand celebration with your family and friends. Still, you have the right to celebrate the season of love and share you care for others. Having such an amazing Christmas doesn’t depend on how many gifts you received or how grand the food that you eat. It’s Christmas! what matters, you remember who we celebrate for and its essence.

My Christmas

Well, mine was all very simple and it was a sleepy day for me and for the family. This was the only time I got the chance to sleep long enough recovering from the sleepless nights I spent in the hospital because my granny was admitted last week. I thought I will spend Christmas in the hospital but luckily my granny was discharged before Christmas day.

I am just happy that my granny is now positively recovering. She had depression and anxiety that caused her to take too much sleep and lost her appetite for the reason that she was diagnose the past month with diabetes. The doctor advised her to go on a diet but she overdo it and caused her to lose weight.

I got the chance to spend my Christmas night with my boyfriend and we were just happy at home talking. It was all simple yet happy time.

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What about you? What did you do this Christmas day? :)

New Year is coming!! What is you New Year’s Resolution? :)

Happy Holidays!
Take care always!

Love,
anna

On my birthday

I am in a dilemma right now. I am torn into pieces of all the things that I want to do on my birthday, which is on Tuesday (09/24). I want a meaningful, great, quite peaceful and happy day. Though I am going to go to church first which ever decision I made.

First, I want to celebrate at home, cooked some for my family and stay at home where I can achieve a quite peaceful and great and happy day. I want to spend some time being completely happy with my love ones but my siblings have classes so, I am going to be alone at home with my father, kasambahay (house helper) and my other sibling. It might be just an ordinary day at home.

Second, I want to go out with my boy friend though he needs to go to work because it is a tuesday and he just started in his new job. I want to go watch movies, eat a lot of food and talk to him all day which is not boring for me. You know what, I can talk to him for long hours without being bored because I am just happy talking to my best friend / boy friend. I just want a date. I miss having date. If he needs to go to work on my day, it’s okay I understand that.

Third, go to Manila and find and meet some friends who are available to eat and chat with me. Maybe just maybe. I can catch up with a lot of them on a tuesday night after their work. My two girl friends, Rachel and Pauline are in school and busy doing stuff. Which automatically not available.

Fourth, if nothing will happen on my day, maybe I can go alone and treat myself and look back all the past 23 years I have been.

Reaching 23 years living and still kicking some butts is really hard. I know I am tough and will tougher than ever. I am just thankful that I have this kind of life. Whatever happens on that day, I am surely thankful that I am alive today.

I will always be the happy and smiling Anna that others usually says about me. Because a lot of people who knew me, describes me as a sun that can brighten up the room and I will still be that kind of person 23 years more and counting.

Love,
Anna

Circles

ImageThere is a formal reason of why you love somebody is to let yourself to be loved too. Considering that they can fully hurt you. We all believe that there are different types of relationships and each one is unique from the other. Maybe it have some things in common but at the end there are some bits and pieces that is unique to anyone else.

We could barely think about how a couple struggle, but one thing is for sure, “If they promised to work things out and if they love each other at a certain point they can do anything they want.” Even, moving mountains across the sea.

There’s no such thing as perfect love, true love or forever. If you just stop finding the right person and let God plan everything for your love. You will no longer chase the wrong ones. Although, sometimes God gave you the wrong one to learn from it so that when the He gave you the right one you can able to manage whatever life gave you, together.

If you love someone, you will do anything and when you do love someone you have to deal with the trials and surpass it together. As people says, “You will not stop wondering not until you try it”. Try to love. Try to risk things. Try to be hurt and cry. Try to scream at the top of your lungs. Try to be yourself. Try not to depend on others because some people throw rubbish at your back because they don’t know you at all.

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There are times that people thought that the only people I have is them. They don’t know that besides them, I also create my own circles and those circles understand for who I am. They are the one who know better than them. I can talk shits and rainbows with them.

Circles can fully understand me. I love my days when I am with them. I felt like I am living and I am human. I am not creating a bubble but I am protecting myself from being hurt by the people who don’t understand me at all. I do not want to cry because of what they say about me. I know words are sharper than a knife and can tear me up into pieces but I allow them to do it to me.

I popped my bubble and let them enter my life again but they hurt me again. Every person that I love were being hurt by these people and I don’t wanna see another person crying because of them. First, I saw my mom cry because of them and now, My father. I don’t wanna see another love cry because of them. It is enough that I cry because they have thrown sharp words at me. I am putting my bubble up again.

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“Understanding” is a big word

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I remember back in college and taking up a “Marriage and Family” course subject as a part of the curriculum. One day, my professor let us pick one with: Understanding, Kindness, Forgiveness, and Patience. I don’t recall what my answer is but now, I totally understand what my professor wanted us to learn about it.

She said, “There is always one thing that you could not give among the four and you will have a hard time earning it but just pray for it and ask it to the Lord.”

Now, I have realized that I lacked of Understanding and I really need to earn it. I always have the grace of understanding but what I am trying to explain here the understanding the SITUATIONS especially the unfavorable ones. If I have it, I could also learn how to forgive, be patient and be kind to everyone because I can understand them.

I can forgive someone because I understand his/her or my mistakes. I can be kind to anyone without waiting for any favorable returns. I can be patient towards the things that needs some waiting. If I could earn and learn Understanding I am able to hold on and let go. I can also learn how to give way and sacrifice things and I could not get what I want sometimes. Life is not fair we all know that and we just need to manage our needs and wants.

Use Understanding at any situation

Have you ever been in this situation?

You really wanted something but fate stepped in and at the end you did not have it at all?

  • How do you feel about it?
  • Have you ever asked God, WHY?
  • Did you cry?
  • Did your heart broke into little pieces?
  • What else did you feel?

We really need understanding in here because we have to realize WHY we did not have it or make it. We have to understand that some things in life are not really for us and at some point we could look for its equivalent and feel better. We must admit that LIFE is UNFAIR and we have to deal with it. We need to start moving forward, so that we are not stuck in the mud with our broken hearts.

Why is it a big word?

At any point of our lives whether it is about success or failures, we have to begin with understanding the situations. By the time being, we can asses our actions towards the situation. This is no-brainer I know but we just have to know how to understand things so that  we move forward without any excess or heavy baggage on our back.

Just keep this on your mind,

in every situations whether it is on your side or not just keep your high hopes because there is always tomorrow. Maybe it is not for you or maybe there are a lot bigger plans waiting for you. Keep you feet onto the ground and be humble. Never let anyone tell you what you can do and what you cannot do because you can do anything if you are eager to achieve one thing.

Never stop believing. Never stop. Just never ever stop.

quote:

“The desire to write grows with writing.”   -Desiderius Erasmus

Always,

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It’s Mother’s day!

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A mother is a best person to have. When you are still young, your mother dressed you up, care when you are sick and do every responsibility she had for you. When she carry you for nine months, she already signed a long-term slash forever contract. A mother will always be a mother. She will be you very first fan, very first admirer and very first best friend.

A mother have an unconditional love to all. A love that is so pure and over flowing. At the end of the day, you will still run to your mother. It doesn’t matter how many times you’ve turned them down or never return their call or even when you said you will going home to stay but you never came. Even if she suffer from the most heart-break she ever had, still, she will stand up for you and wipe her tears and move on. A mother is a very flexible and strong being. She can endure pain because she loves you. She can be your father because your father is missing and maybe he will never come back again.

She could be your best friend and your worst enemy but still she is your mother, you cannot alter it and as a child you must love your mother even if she nagged so hard at you and your siblings, pick up some fights with your father, no time for you because of her busy tasks at work, and being as your ever responsible and over protective mother to you.

She have this genuine heart, full of band-aid and plasters but she is a strong woman. Thank her for bringing you here in this chaotic yet wonderful world. Love her for raising you to be a good child, brother, sister, husband, wife, father and mother to everyone. Care for her because she have a strong heart that beats for you and love you unconditionally. Wipe her tears and make her smile. Make time for her, kiss her in front of everyone, and hug her tight and never let her go of your arms.

You are special in the eyes of your mom. You are lovely in front of your mom. When you feel that no one else love you, look at your mom, she’s loving you. Tell your mom how much you love her. Mother’s day is not only celebrated today but it is celebrated every single day of the year of the decade of the century and ever and ever and ever.

Remember, A mother will always be a mother.

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Sending all my love to all the mothers in the world; especially to my Mama, Nanay and Mommy. You have such a good, kind, and humble heart among God’s creations.

Here’s a quote for you,

“A metaphor is like a simile.”
Author Unknown

Love,

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